Life Warrior.

When I was a kid, I remember being very emotional, I felt everything. If my brother got picked on, I mourned. If my dad abused my mother, I felt heartache and panic. Everytime the cops showed up to our house, I hid under the covers while my stomach churned. We had our asses whooped at least once a day.  I was always rebellious as a child, tomboy times a thousand. I rode trick bikes with the boys, and climbed trees, I hung out at the football field while my friends practiced and kicked a soccer ball around for hours. The girls were so much drama for me and the boys didn’t think I was good enough. My entire childhood, i was put down by the opposite sex. My dad criticized me if i lost too much weight or if i had gained too much. If I didn’t understand my homework, he would slap me and curse me until I did.  My brothers would hit me when we fought and I’ve had the boys at school make fun of my hair and pull on it every chance they got. I waited for the next time they would challenge me, the rush i would get is indescribable....i remember striking back like a snake......My dad made me, my brothers and my sister carry cinder blocks out the back of his car which is probably why my hands wound up so rough. It took getting jumped twice by a man, raped in a nightclub, and knocked up and abused by a sociopath for me to develop the willpower and courage to fight back against anything else that stole my dignity in this life. After sharing my experiences with certain people about my past and my struggles, I was then discredited  and scrutinized for being a tainted woman. Sometimes, I feel worthless. Other times, I feel empowered. I’ve come along way. Built myself up one blow at a time. My father and i don’t have a relationship today, nor do i want one. I work hard and fight for my salary increase, I’m constantly pursuing my education, and striving to improve my quality of life. I’ve learned self defense, I’ve learned how to do anything that a man can do and everyday I walk with my head held high. Nothing can break me and if someone believes otherwise, I invite them to challenge me. My life has not been easy but I continue to fight. I am a Life warrior.